|'Worship in His Presence" 36x48 inches Watercolor and Ink ©Toni Ruppert|
My sister-in-law, Bridgette, called me the other day and asked me "Aren’t you glad you didn’t give up on your dream?” I almost ‘died’ right there because that day, I felt like I was in the middle of a Job-like experience and my current dream seemed out of reach.
But after speaking to Bridgette, I discovered that it’s all in perspective. She reminded me of the year 2004 - a significant year for me. That was the last time I worked as a secretary-who-really-wanted-to-be-a-full-time-artist.
She brought to my mind how all I had hoped for at the time was to schlep my stuff to a Borders bookstore. Maybe, just maybe - “they” would give me permission to show in their cafe.
After she said that, it prompted me to review my journal from March, 2004. I saw:
--I wanted to be in an art show and barely had an artist statement together
--I wondered if the local park district would let get a spare wall to paint on
--My Thursday night watercolor class with Lenox Wallace at The Center in Palos Heights was my lifeline and only artistic outlet
--I tried to share my portfolio with an admissions person at a local fine arts college
--I brought my portfolio to work to show to the public relations rep. - I longed to paint something - anything - for my employer
Lots of dreaming, hoping and praying in March 2004.
Then, in 2008, God prompted me to take a step of faith. That one step was to walk through a door HE opened for me. That door led to my second public art project for a city library. That second project was huge and helped me and two other artisans financially.
As I contemplate my sister in law’s question, “Aren't you glad you didn't give up on your dream?,” I know my answer.
And there are more creative dreams for 2012 that I’m not going to give up on.