|"Pumpkin Love" Watercolor and Pastel ©Toni Ruppert|
Take this week, for example.
What could I do when my little one Imani wanted to put on her costume--just to "practice?" You know me. The mom and artist in me said “OK” and grabbed my camera. As she twirled around and around, I think she thought she’d BECOME a butterfly.
The next day, my big teen Kayla begged me for help with her Halloween homework for Spanish. She had to create a full length cardboard skeleton with her very own attributes. She had already made an amazing outfit by hand out of scraps of cloth I had. She just needed the hair done. So there I was - at 11pm sewing weave(hair extensions) on her Día de los Muertos skeleton. I’m thinking, “First of all, I don't know how to sew weave and secondly, “Isn't this YOUR project?” Thankfully, we finished it and she was happy with it.
Mommy's work, like artists’ work means hearing and noticing.
This is what I heard this week:
“Mommy can you help me find my doll’s sippy cup?”
“Mommy come and see my transformer - no come and see!(she was holding playdoh and a broken handle from a drawer)”
“Mommy, guess what Nicholas is for Halloween. No Guess!”
And this is what I noticed:
My daughters are as creative as I am and are actually more fearless than I.
When I hear the word “Mommy” when I’m concentrating on writing or painting, I get edgy.
Actually making art is pretty challenging with my current lifestyle.
It’s that last one that is kicking my behind right now.
With costume prep, taking Kayla back and forth for her skit(she is directing a skit at church--just in time for Halloween), prepping the car for the Trunk or Treat and the school Halloween party--it’s amazing that I put paintbrush to palette at all.
In a recent interview with Darren Hardy of Success Magazine, Paula Deen shares that when she first started out by herself, she sacrificed her relationship with her boys. I heard that and froze. That scared me.
All too often, Imani says, "Mommy, play with me," and sadly my response is “Hold on, just one more minute” as I type or paint.
Have you ever had to say that? Are you developing something BIG and yet have to re-prioritize and perhaps even(gulp) sacrifice what’s actually precious to bring the BIG it into existence?
Yes, Halloween is here. But there is nothing that scares me more right now than being a mommy...and an artist.